It Might Just Work Out

Day after day I keep reading in the news about how the economy is headed down the tubes; food and energy costs are set to go through the roof . So what do I do ? I have started a business with a friend.

It's not like I'm wanting to make a ton of money . My plan is that it will be enough to supplement my meager pension, should I decide to take early retirement.

The idea for the business has been kicking around for awhile . Having a regular paycheck makes it easy to procrastinate about these things. Now though, both of us are unhappy with work and uncertain about our futures ( more so me) . Then last night my friend came up with the perfect name for the business and that was it, I decided to go ahead and register a domain name . The start up costs are minimal , so if it doesn't work out it's no great loss. We both of us have the summer off to work on it and see how it goes.

It's great for me because I'll be able to work from home, since most of it will be internet based. Then it won't matter what time I work or don't work . I won't have to worry about how I look or how I feel and if my face starts twitching again, I won't have to worry about anybody seeing it.
Besides that, I really need some kind of project to keep me going.

I know that having a business with a friend could be a disaster. I've seen it happen time after time through dealings with clients in my real job. People have high expectations , big dreams, don't look at the negatives , and it all ends up in tears.

Well I'm willing to take a chance. I don't see things getting better for me at my real job and truthfully, I'm not up to a long drawn out battle with management.
It sure beats my alternative plan , which is to take early retirement and get a job as a greeter at Wal Mart. Yes, I really was considering that.

While I was organizing this thing I decided to see if there was a good movie on Drive In Classics .
What do you know ! "First Men in the Moon" 1964, was on. Haven't seen it since I was a girl.
It was one of my favourite sci fi films, with cool aliens and decent special effects . Seeing it again I found it just as good as when I was 10.

I'm not a Bloody Fool !

Last night I posted a link to Images of MS, a photo project about different people who have MS.
It seems that my fellow bloggers feel the need to educate me about the links this site has to a certain drug company.
Hey! I'm not a Bloody Fool ! I'm well aware of the drug sponsorship.

When I was first diagnosed with MS I didn't know a thing about it. So what did I do? I turned to the internet to find out all I could . First stop The MS Society of Canada, who's website is sponsored by Biogen Idec, makers of Avonex , as is the MS Alliance. Next I tried MS Watch, proudly connected with Teva, makers of Betaseron. In the meantime my mother bought me Montel Williams book " Climbing Higher", him turning out to be one of the biggest drug pushers. Oh ! and the MSAA, are also pretty good at spreading the drug message.

Site after site with very little info about alternatives Like maybe a massage might be better than more, stronger, pain killers?
Next I went on some forums,asked for advice and what did I get ? People telling me about this drug and that drug. I decided to stay away from the forums after a person recommended Symbalta, a highly addictive anti depressant, with a lovely side effect to boot. Psychotic
episodes !

Are the bloggers any different ? No I'd say the vast majority discuss all the drugs they shoot up every day even though they are vocal critics of the very companies that make said drugs.

Over and over I am told that these drugs work and yet I'm not convinced. How does anybody know that they really work ? You haven't had a relapse ? or it wasn't as bad as last time ? Can you say for certain that it was thanks to your medication ?
And what about long term effects ? I'm planning to be around for at least another 20 years or more . Am I really supposed to fill my body up everyday with medication and think it won't catch up with me ? That I won't end up like the HIV people ?

And I can get as much drugs as I want because I have a very good drug plan . My union is even saying that soon I will have a drug "credit card" Take it to the pharmacy and I only have to pay the 20% deductible. Wow ! just imagine when the doctors , the supreme drug pushers, find out about that.

I take Advil and a couple of measly sleeping pills every week .That's it. I don't take Allectec for my fatigue because that just gives me fake energy. And I don't take anti depressants because they don't work . And I don't take Amantadine for my spasms because it's an anti viral drug that is used to fight flu. So if I get the flu will that stuff work if I've been using it for years ? And is it really a good idea to mess around with your immune system ?

Answer me this ? Where exactly was I supposed to go to get info about MS without bumping into a drug company ? Isn't " Images of MS" at least trying to promote some public awareness of
MS ? Awareness that I could have used, instead of being scared out of my pants because I didn't know what the heck was the matter with me.