Sunday, May 24, 2009

The Boredom of MS

Getting up in the morning with a headache. The same rotten headache that has been hanging around for two weeks. The on again, off again, whooshing sound in my ears, which now features a pulse in my right ear, and always happens when I am in most desperate need of sleep. Waking up in the morning, thinking of all they things that need to get done. Going to bed at night knowing not even half got done. The "to do" list, getting longer, never shorter. Always needing a list, otherwise things will be forgotten. Having to pay people to do things I use to be able to do myself. Carrying two small measly bags of shopping and it feels like a ton. Anxiety attacks , especially in crowded places. Avoiding social commitments because I might not be able to fulfill them. Feeling " Oh so very tired" most of the time, and the ever shifting pains .

Feeling like a rotten, miserable, complaining, hypochondriac.

Do I have anything good to say ? Yes. Summer has arrived . These are the nice milder days with no humidity . The days when the heating is finally off and no need for the air conditioner, yet.

My backyard is actually starting to look like a proper yard, instead of the jungle morass it has been, since my body and brain decided they didn't like the sun anymore. I might even take a few pictures and post them here.

And I promis I will sort out all the awards everyone has been bestowing on me and pass them on

Oh please let these lovely days continue for awhile.


Diane J Standiford said...

I know that boring feeling. I say I'm not easily bored, but some days...I just want the MS to stop.
PS--you blog is NEVER boring.

Taxingwoman said...

Thanks Diane Your blog is never boring either

Living Day to Day with Multiple Sclerosis said...

You are describing what I have been dealing with the last few weeks with the sounds in my ears but I don't have a headach....Is it sinuses or just some crazy thing with our ears???

Taxingwoman said...

Hi! Tara. Have to go for a test on Wednesday to find out what it isn't

suejan said...

It's frustrating. Headaches drive me insane. Tried every pill that's made and I find Anadin extra helps.Go to bed with 2 tablets under kylie-also have that 4 head rub. Part of the trouble for me is not drinking enough as I now have a flip flow catheter. Used to drink smoothies but fruit rotted teeth so big dentist bills so it's now peppermint tea,water and as I read coffee stops headaches -cup of caffinated and a tablet of feverfew before I go to bed