Getting up in the morning with a headache. The same rotten headache that has been hanging around for two weeks. The on again, off again, whooshing sound in my ears, which now features a pulse in my right ear, and always happens when I am in most desperate need of sleep. Waking up in the morning, thinking of all they things that need to get done. Going to bed at night knowing not even half got done. The "to do" list, getting longer, never shorter. Always needing a list, otherwise things will be forgotten. Having to pay people to do things I use to be able to do myself. Carrying two small measly bags of shopping and it feels like a ton. Anxiety attacks , especially in crowded places. Avoiding social commitments because I might not be able to fulfill them. Feeling " Oh so very tired" most of the time, and the ever shifting pains .
Feeling like a rotten, miserable, complaining, hypochondriac.
Do I have anything good to say ? Yes. Summer has arrived . These are the nice milder days with no humidity . The days when the heating is finally off and no need for the air conditioner, yet.
My backyard is actually starting to look like a proper yard, instead of the jungle morass it has been, since my body and brain decided they didn't like the sun anymore. I might even take a few pictures and post them here.
And I promis I will sort out all the awards everyone has been bestowing on me and pass them on
Oh please let these lovely days continue for awhile.