The day kind of unraveled, resulting in me missing my nature walk . At least the groceries got delivered on time.
I had wanted to go out on a different section of the Bruce trail late this afternoon . My girlfriend called and we ended up gabbing on the phone for hours. She's house bound with two young babies most of the time and is therefore in need of some adult (female) conversation and in my semi brain dead state I'm a pretty good listener. If I'm absorbing any of it, I'm not sure. By the time I hung up the weather had gone all funny again, cloudy with a storm threatening, so I decided to do some cooking and laundry. Around 8:30 I really felt in need of some sort of walk. I did a quick run to the drugstore and mailed some postcards.
I'm having a case of the guilts . Here goes with a bit of whining.
I feel guilty when I read other blogs and people talk about working, commuting long distances, by car or bus , coming home in the evening, and doing family and social stuff. Some have much worse MS symptoms than I have and yet they do so much. Why can't I do it? When I'm working I feel so wasted and I don't even commute. Today what did I do ? Some cooking, laundry, and a few postcards, and now my blog . I sat on the couch thinking of all these other things I could be doing and yet I knew I was too darn weak to. I don't think it's because I'm a whimp or lazy, but I feel that way sometimes. Yeah I know , think positive and all that. Some days I can't.
Two things I hate about MS, this weak feeling and brain dead !
Or maybe I should blame the cell phone ?