Wednesday, May 7, 2008

MS Social Failings

Late last night I had a long telephone chat with a friend. The telephone and internet are a blessing for me. We all use to live so close to each other, my family , friends, and me. Now, mostly due to economic reasons, we are scattered everywhere. My moving out here to Hamilton has made it even harder to see all of them . The MS doesn't help either.

Two summers ago when I was planning to go to a friends wedding, I had my first MS social failing. That's what I call it.
Right up to the last moment I wasn't sure I would make it. I was such a wreck. It took me all morning to get ready, something I usually can do in half an hour. I felt like I was pasted to the couch, could barely move. I did end up going, but it was a challenge and I left way earlier than I wanted to. That's happened a few times now, including one time that resulted in a big fight with a relative. She was frustrated with me being such a deadbeat and I was annoyed at her frustration. I've had a couple of less intense fights with friends too. I just wasn't handling the MS very well. Not sure if I've improved any.
For me the hardest part is the whole head thing. My lousy memory, lack of concentration, the feeling sometimes, that my head is made out of Jello, that I'm going to be space cadet, zombie woman, forever. Like yesterday, when a simple trip to the drug store made me feel like a totally incompetent twit. OK enough of that.

I woke up to the sounds of our friendly neighbourhood woodpecker. He's so ambitious, out there every morning, drilling away at that tree in the back of my house. Been doing that for over a month now. The tree must be awfully full of bugs, which isn't so good.

Nice to hear from the tech guys this morning .Things are looking good on the website. Now It's my turn to get busy promoting it. The latest house project, stripping an old door, will have to be put on hold for a bit. Actually it's a very easy house project since the original paint was applied over old shellac and never adhered properly. It's all coming off with me just using a small scraper. The door underneath looks good. Why was it ever painted ?

Right now I have to get in touch with somebody to test all the Pay Pal buttons on the website.
So that's all the whining for today.

MS blog. Are you a blessing or a curse ?


mdmhvonpa said...

It's tough, but you are going to loose friends. You are not the same person you once were ... a bit different now. There are ppl out there who cannot handle that.

Taxingwoman said...

Sad but true !

Diane J Standiford said...

I haven't lost any friends yet. I don't know why. Your ?--some days it s great fun, other days a curse and hard WORK. You have "tech guys?" lucky goose!! I have a blog, but no clue what I'm doing.

Taxingwoman said...

Well the tech guys help with my website and they don't do it for love. Money money of course.
I have no clue what I'm doing but I get by.